Sometimes you have to blow the hinges off.

You'd think since I've been finding the time to write in so many other places around the internet, I'd find the time to update my blog more, too, but alas it has not been so. Part of the problem is that every time I sit down to compose, something inconvenient happens, like just now I spilled an entire glass of tea on the desk by flipping open the laptop lid, but hey, the desk needed to be dusted and I didn't really want to pay that annual bend-over vehicle registration bill anyway, so now I can just throw it away.

Or not.

Anyway, part of why I haven't been writing here is because there's been some weirdness in our lives, weirdness that I couldn't really talk about yet, and since I'm terrible at keeping secrets possibly because I never shut up long enough to remember what's a secret and what isn't, its better if I just stay away from the taunting of the Typepad compose cursor.

So. here's the deal. I have a new job. In a couple of weeks, I will be leaving the job I've had for two and a half years at my church, and will go be the computer teacher in a nearby elementary school. I'm totes excited. But, also kind of sad to be moving on from this job where I have really been challenged, and loved deeply the people I am working with.

Truly, I have loved my job at church. Like 95% of it. Unfortunately, the 5% I didn't love was a well fed elephant in the room, getting bigger and stronger every day, squeezing out the space and air and blocking the light, until my claustrophobia kicked in and started whispering in my ear like a ghost in a bad horror flick: "get ooooooouuuuut."

So I started reevaluating what I want to be when I grow up, you know, now that I'm 39 forever. And I have always, deep down in my gut, wanted to teach.

I don't have many regrets in my life. I think regret, like guilt, is a worthless emotion that implies that you've learned nothing from an experience. But I do regret not finishing my teachers certification in college. I meant to go back and finish over the years, but life got in the way.

But now I can teach, a subject I know very well, and work on my certification at the same time.

I start in a few weeks. I'm so excited. The hardest part, frankly, will be being at work every day by 8am. I'm usually not even I'm the shower by 8am! Quite the adjustment.

Like ministry, teaching is doing something for the greater good, more giving back than climbing the corporate ladder. I'm done with the corporate ladder, I want to make a difference. That part of my drive hasn't changed.

Hopefully I'll still have time to write, and sometimes make a buck or two doing it. Making a difference ain't exactly Trump City, you know.

I still believe in the saying " when one door closes, another door opens." But I think sometimes, you have to blow the hinges off. You have to go after your future, not just sit around and wait for it to happen.

A final thought. I am not a sit around and pray for guidance to make a hard decision kind of person. I believe prayer is not to be used as an excuse to avoid doing hard things. Prayer is to find comfort and strength in the love of God as you make your own decisions. And that, my friends, is powerful enough for me.

 

 

 

 

Comments

[cagey]

congraulations! Also kudos to you for having the courage to make changes in your life. Change is scary, but often necessary.

[SJ]

Congrats to you and good luck. I'm proud of you for having the courage and inner strength to move on from something that you know and love, to something you have a desire for. A passion perhaps.

You'll be fine.
Juuust fine.